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Jan 2001
Review: Out of Place: A Memoir. Edward W Said. Viking, 1999.
This extraordinary memoir is the
story of two Saids: an "outer" Edward, "buffeted and
cosseted" by parental injunctions, and an "inner, far less compliant
and private self". The outer "Edward" seems to himself "to
be nearly devoid of any character at all, timid, uncertain, without will".
This pathetic self-image is repeatedly reinforced by his parents—father
William A Said (formerly Wadie Ibrahim), an astonishingly successful
businessman, and mother Hilda, whose deep ambivalence towards Edward and his
four sisters ensured that they slowly but surely drifted away from each other.
This sense of being a misfit within his own family echoes his
sense of being "out of place" in the world (a lack of
"at-homeness" in George Steiner’s awkward but arresting phrase).
Born in Jerusalem and living in Cairo; named after the Prince of Wales
("Edward, a foolishly English name yoked forcibly to the unmistakably
Arabic name Said"); his parents "two Palestinians with dramatically
different backgrounds and temperaments"; father, an American citizen— the
hybridities are many and deeply unsettling. At an American school in Cairo, he
observes, "the overall sensation I had was of my troublesome identity as an
American inside whom lurked another Arab identity from which I derived no
strength, only embarrassment and discomfort." The Arab identity too is profoundly problematic. For one,
Arabic is prohibited in the "Victoria College" he attends (a
prohibition his Arabic-speaking classmates and he subvert scatologically). For
another, his parents hardly ever discuss the "problem of Palestine and its
tragic loss". The repression of Palestine "occurred as part of a
larger depoliticization on the part of my parents, who hated and distrusted
politics, feeling too precarious in Egypt for participation, or even open
discussion. Politics always seemed to involve other people, not us."
Neither Yasser Arafat, nor terrorism are ever mentioned in this book; Out of
Place in that sense is only marginally a "political" book,
describing the trajectory of a life that was to become intensely politically
engaged — Said has been writing and speaking on Palestine for the last 30
years. But of course, the silence within the family notwithstanding,
political events were not to leave the prosperous Saids untouched either:
"my aunt Nabiha’s family would be driven out of Jerusalem in stages"
he says. Later, in the rioting in 1952 as monarchial Egypt disappeared, Wadie
Said’s businesses were "totally gutted" by a mob. The extraordinary
Said senior simply said, "let’s roll up our sleeves, and begin
again"! The emotional counterweight to the Victorian father is Hilda,
Edward’s mother. "It was my mother’s often melting warmth which offered
me a rare opportunity to be the person I felt I truly was in contrast to the
"Edward" who failed at school and sports, and could never match the
manliness my father represented." It is from Hilda that Edward gets his abiding love for music
and books. He recalls luminously one instance of that shared love: "The two
of us sat in the front reception room...and we read Hamlet together....
Reading Hamlet as an affirmation of my status in her eyes, not as someone
devalued, which I had become in mine, was one of the great moments in my
childhood." Hilda speaks to and awakens that "other Edward",
who could read, think, and even write independent of "Edward". Even
before his departure for USA in 1951 and his subsequent brilliant academic
career, "I was aware of myself making connections between disparate books
and ideas with considerable ease.... My greatest gift was memory... I would have
moments of exultant recollection that enabled me to look out over a sea of
details, spotting patterns, phrases, world clusters, which I imagined as
stretching out interconnectedly without limit". However, these were numinous moments; Said’s portrayal of
himself throughout his childhood is that of "a growing sense of discomfort,
rebelliousness, drift, and loneliness". Both as narrator and as character,
Said says in the Preface, "I have consciously not spared myself the same
ironies or embarrassing recitals". While that soul-baring is often searing,
it does occasionally verge on self-pity. Still, after a life so closely examined, how many can say the
following? "As I write now, it gives me a chance, very late in life, to
record the experiences as a coherent whole that very strangely have left no
anger, some sorrow, and a surprisingly strong residual love for my
parents." As Salman Rushdie notes, this "is an intensely moving
act of reclamation and understanding". No surprise then that Out of
Place won the New Yorker Book Award. A Giridhar Rao
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